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This Is My Story

August 28, 2012

by Cathy Rodgers!



Wow, God have we really missed Your many memos through the years that none of us really know who You really are? I know back in 2000 You and I had rondevous at the “mercy seat” in Heaven that left me wondering why or how I rated the special invite. I know Your Son Jesus Christ gave His life a ransom for all of us before we were even born that are alive now, none of us attended that event, yet I know if those local had been there they still would have rejected the whole thing and that bothers even me.

So, here’s the big question, how confused are we? Some have God being crucified instead of His Son! Some think the devil is God’s son instead of a former fallen from grace and Heaven like a bolt of lightening to earth angel with an arrogant attitude toward God for putting him in his place. I just started to read a book that I heard some really good things about only to come across one phrase that I just can’t get past. One author had Jesus becoming a “serpent” instead of a serVant, another had God “crucified on the cross instead of His Son and still another one had Jesus Christ labeled as a “hot headed” for overturning the tables in the temple because the money changers were ripping the Israelites off! Please … I have something to say and this is my “soap box” of a sort! Some will claim to be Christians, but the fruits of the spirit have not even gotten root but got choked out by thistles and rotted and spoiled in the rocks daily for lack of a connection to the Gardener. (The sower and seed story*)

This Is My Story (not official title though)

I had my mind focused on the Lord Jesus Christ in prayer, in fact it was my 10pm date with the Lord Jesus and my Bibles and I do mean “Bibles”.. I came to a place where one version wasn’t enough to get to the core issue I was facing, though I now know the source of the problem or as someone once asked about the Key to the problem, it is Satan totally! On that one night though I was still searching and while in earnest prayer I saw the Nail Scarred hand reach down to take me by the hand and to teach me the truth. I did not think I was dreaming, but I wanted to think about it for awhile only to have a lunatic start acting daffy. Then something clicked: What does a lady do when she meets the grooms Father? Slow approach, apprehensive and uncertainties galore. Then He reached out His hand, “permission …to approach” rings a bell now, but then something totally different. “No one has seen God and lived” oh, wait consider the source! The Israelites thought that and the sad part is that all of them in on it died before crossing the Jordan River.

Genesis 32:30 KJV 30 And Jacob called the name of the place Peniel: for I have seen God face to face, and my life is preserved. Exodus 20:18-19 KJV 18 And all the people saw the thunderings, and the lightnings, and the noise of the trumpet, and the mountain smoking: and when the people saw it, they removed, and stood afar off.19 And they said unto Moses, Speak thou with us, and we will hear: but let not God speak with us, lest we die.

GOD talk to me and I did not die! Saw Him and did not die even had my life put on death door until He said “would have said no” after asking me if I was ready to go to Heaven? Well, “How am I going to do what You told me if…” “No” to that too! Now He says “don’t even ask Him to take my life the answer will still be NO”. “Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God”.

There is a line in the song by Fanny J. Crosby called “Blessed Assurance”(posted below) that states “oh what a foretaste of glory divine…” I fully believe even she saw the light of His glory!

Seeing Him did not change me for the worse, but for the better and knowing more than I thought I would ever know. He is not unapproachable, nor is He hateful. I never felt so much compassion in my life, other than Paul(Enright) and that is untouchable! Treasured words! You would have see him through my eyes and the eye of God to understand the depth of the love I have for him and why I pray for his safety and mine against the lawbreakers. It is why I prayed a hedge of thorns around him in a Sunday school class 6 days before a unlawful marrige took place to trigger pain in the adulterous women who has invaded the walls of his home playing the devil advocate that she has always been.



369. Blessed Assurance

Text: Fanny J. Crosby, 1820-1915 Music: Phoebe P. Knapp, 1839-1908 Tune: ASSURANCE, Meter: 9 10.9 9 with Refrain

1. Blessed assurance, Jesus is mine!
O what a foretaste of glory divine!
Heir of salvation, purchase of God,
born of his Spirit, washed in his blood.


This is my story, this is my song, praising my Savior all the day long; this is my story, this is my song, praising my Savior all the day long.

2. Perfect submission, perfect delight,
visions of rapture now burst on my sight;
angels descending bring from above
echoes of mercy, whispers of love. (Refrain)

3. Perfect submission, all is at rest;
I in my Savior am happy and blest,
watching and waiting, looking above,
filled with his goodness, lost in his love.


Sometimes we have very vivid dreams and other times one is so dumb that it makes no sense at all and no time should be wasted on them. I have had my share and it’s safe to say most everybody else does too. Sometimes we can control things and other times it just impossible until we call on God for help with it and end up doing better those we thought possible.
Reoccuring dreams are usually a heads up from God to warn us of pending issues coming in at full speed ahead. Other times the dream happens, but the ones involved are not around in some may have passed away and can not ever do something like that or it can also mean someone related to them. Take note.
Other dreams are pending blessings like marriage or a birth. The ones that bother me the most are the ones about death and funerals that leave me angry or numb. I had one that kept repeating until June 21,2001 when it ended but not without a flashback to it as I walked away from a place I never should have never been. It is also a place that needs leveled to stop such conduct from happening EVER again to any victim!
Imagine being out like a light and being taken to a place without knowing how you got there! Or have a feeding tube in your mouth filled up with little white pills (four pill cups full, maybe more) that they were pouring down your throat instead of pumping them out like Doctor’s and Nurse’s are suppose to do! I heard a heart monitor go off, I now know it was attached to me. That was a very hard thing to deal with, even now I still feel the shock to my faith in the medical profession. I am sure there has to be some law abiding medics around, but only one admitted he was not perfect (1/100)! I can not write details that are a horror to me, and have never told a living person to this day. I might not ever need to because God handed down their death penalty for what they did do. None of them will ever escape HIS punishment for getting away with it legally by prevent me from filling charges against ever one of them. That would be about 100 people or more!

Anyone want to go through that fire? What? No takers? Listen very closely…Neither did I. People from the church I attended at the time where the instigators, and that gave new meaning to the title of a book by Beth Moore ” When Godly People Do Ungodly Things”. I have to say this, I know what the book is about. It came out in 2005, four years after the 2001 crime. It was not Godly people, it was those who have never been Christians. They said and I will quote it here “it is not worth being a Christian”, “don’t need to be baptized to be a Christian” (preacher spit that one out!)”. That is the evidence that demanded their spiritual convictions and untrue on both counts. Not mine. The crime they committed demands their legal conviction and prison sentences. I can not apologize for what God demanded in my defense and that of every Real Christian and innocent person.

Is it finished? No, and yes. Jesus Christ said what was done to me was not happening to me ever again, because one threat by anyone who thinks they can do what 60+ people did to me will get the same punishment with an uncureable type of cancer.


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